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Random Thoughts of a Lioness

The reward of conformity was that everyone liked you, except yourself.

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This is me. Like it or not. 'I have long since come to believe that people never mean half of what they say, and it is best to disregard their talk and judge only their actions' - Dorothy Day, 1952

Thursday, September 30, 2004

Busy Peasy

I have soooo many things to write, but haven't had the chance to blog at all!

In summary:

1) Mama is in town again, a stopover from Kuching.

2) My uncle, has finally proposed to his girlfriend and they might get married as soon as after Raya. Good for him. He has been alone too long after the divorce.
*But since it is still hush-hush, I shall write about it some other time.*

3) One of Daddy's ikan toman died. The girls fried it and served us 'prengkes toman'. Not surprising that they ended up finishing it.

4) Am finally back to my regular tennis sessions with the gang, and started my long-planned morning walks. Last Sunday eaaaarly morning went up Kiara Hill and suffered muscle pull for a week.
*Note to self: Drag the others this Sunday*

A birthday shout to Bro - have a great day (eventhough we both know there's nothing much to celebrate when you're stuck in the plant for night shifts!) and a wonderful year ahead. Presents later, yeah?



Wednesday, September 29, 2004

The idea that went down the drain..

I found out last Sunday that PS2 now is selling for about RM750 - and it is inclusive of 10 games, two controls and they'll modify it too! Was so excited as I was planning to get that for Abang for his wedding gift (he has hinted sooooo many times!). The only set back is that the Ceramic Ones are no longer on sale. Called Abang to confirm.

Abang : Err, dok payohlah Adik. I don't think it's a good idea anymore.

lion3ss : Why? *puzzled look* I thought that's what you've been asking for?

Abang : IJ feels left out. She thinks PS2 would be MY gift, not OUR gift..even if it is white. She is not into games.

lion3ss : But I thought she was okay with the idea earlier?

Abang : Not really. She thought you were joking. Adik beli mende laing ah.

lion3ss : Okaaay.. *since when do I joke around with something costing almost half of my pay?!* What should I get you now?!.



Well, I guess I better put on my thinking cap again.





Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Reminder of the Day

Narrated 'Aisha (r.a.):

Allah's Apostle (peace be upon him) said, "If anyone of you feels drowsy while praying he should go to bed (sleep) till his slumber is over because in praying while drowsy one does not know whether one is asking for forgiveness or for a bad thing for oneself."

Sahih Bukhari Volume 1, Book 4, Number 211

It's Casa Impian Time - The lion3ss Way

The flu bug has decided to stay a little bit longer this time. Hence, I am left with a limited sense of smell and taste for the past couple of days. Even the beef bowl in Yoshinoya last night didn't taste as good as it always is *sigh*.

Went to see the progress at home last Saturday. It is almost done, and am glad to say that it was done very nicely. Now to start searching for other things like the sofa, bed for the guest room, etc etc..the list is endless.*ARRGH! lion3ss thinks she just just heard her credit card scream!*

Saw this absolutely gorgeous teak daybed-like sofa in TTDI market *drooling*. It looks so antique and I fell in love with it at first sight. And best of all - it'll go so well with the new home concept! However, the price is a bit on the high side, and although Abang is funding a certain amount as a belated wedding gift (hehe, thanks Abang!),I seriously think it is a bit too much. Maybe I'll have better luck (and better value for money!) when go scouting around in the teak places this weekend. Buster is not as agreeable to it though. He agrees it is indeed beautiful, but he had already bought my earlier plan of an L-shape sofa. I think T too, since these boys just love to be couch potatoes in front of the telly *sheesh*. Haven't made up my mind yet. Hopefully I'll have something by the time Jack is done with the final touches next week.

I am also looking for those wood craving 3 Quls and Surah Kursi (the guy in the market wanted to sell one to us for a 'discounted' price of RM800!!) Am contemplating of ordering it from Terengganu. I love the carvings we have back home, especially the mirror frame with Mama and Aboh's initial.

Hmm, shall bring up the idea with Aboh tonight. Till then, will definitely keep eyes and ears open for other ideas and suggestions. *lion3ss flips open her Anjung Seri, Homestyle and other magazines for the gadzillionth time*

Friday, September 24, 2004

A Walk Down Memory Lane - The Ice Cream & Satay Story

Nanum is finally discharged from the hospital last night. Since BW is back home, I think I'll hang my gourmet chef apron for a while. It was fun while it lasted though. And hopefully, if I am indeed moving back home it'll start again!

Anyway, last night Tiya expressed her amazement about a friend who eats rice with butter and asked me if I ever did. Told her my favourite lunch when I was growing up was nasi bater kicap ngan ayang goreng kunyit (rice with butter and soy sauce and chicken fried with tumeric). And how Mok, my nanny used to cook us maggi mee with chicken feet and carrots to make sure our meal was nutritious (and to make sure our eyesight is good, hence the carrot!). *Sorry Mok, all three of us ended up with glasses after all!*

I remember all the food we used to eat after school too. Being in the afternoon session in my Primary 2, 3 and 4,we used to look forward to the end of our school hours. Reason being, apart from the fact that school is over? We get to buy aiskring roti dua poseng and sate ikang kuoh manis or kuoh pedah, or kuoh capur* for that matter. The ice cream man outside our school gates sold these delicious ice cream they bring in an ice box on his bike (or sometimes motorcycle). You can either have the aiskring collek (ice cream with cone), aiskrim batang (the normal ice lolly on a stick) or the aiskring roti (scoops of ice cream sandwiched between two slices of bread)Of course it wasn't those glamorous ice cream like Haagen Dasz (which I didn't hear of until I was 16), Walls or Magnolia, but it was delicious! And as for the sate ikang(fish satay), the sate man would come on his trishaw-like vehicle, and grill the sate there and then. The satay is actually *small home made fishballs on a stick, served with either a sweet or spicy sauce or a mixture of both. Best thing was, you could buy one for ten cents!

There are other sellers outside the gate, like the assam lady, the bread uncle and other, but these two were always the favourite among us. I went around SRSS 1 & 2 recently during my trip back, but sadly no Pokcik Sate Ikang or Aiskring Roti man was around. *sigh* In their places are those ice cream sellers with Walls or Magnolia tricycles.

I seriously think my nieces and nephews are missing a lot of simple things I enjoyed when I was little..

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

the sniffles

Reached the office at 0930 this morning. The sore throat was getting the better of me and I was dragged to see Dr Soong this morning. I guess the flu *sniff* medicine is working it wonders right now, since I can't really keep my eyes open. Will definitely consider leaving after lunch.

Hope I didn't get the viral fever that is going around right now. Otherwise I might just end up next to Nanum in the hospital!

One thing about my sore throat is that I usually..err..ALWAYS end up having this rocker-style voice. Used to think it was cool since I get to sing Joan Jett and Ella's songs with 'their' voice. But nowadays I'd rather keep quiet and speak only when spoken to!

Work almost done. Gonna flag that cab and head home now.



Saturday, September 18, 2004

Remember to count your blessings, sometimes they come when you least expect 'em.

Took Friday off. *Not that I mind so much NOT being in the office! grin* Since the night before saw some of us straining our eyes over at Woody’s. He was in charge of a competition organised by a leading local bank, and his good-for-nothing hired staff did not deliver as supposed to. Hence, the not hired staff a.k.a. Me, Buster, Jean, SL, Chef and Evon spent our Thursday night slaving over more that 5000 entry forms to segregate the winners from the rest. I almost swear to never again join all these competitions out of pity for the event organisers! However, we managed to get things done by 0130 hours (much to my dismay since I missed both Buffy showings! Hehe..)

Poor Buster had an 0800 hours meeting in Putrajaya. Me? I slept on and only woke up at 0900 after three calls from Mama and yes, left almost immediately when she started her ‘Mama-mari-KL-sekali-sekala-pung-awok-bangung lewat’ (‘I-only come-to-KL-occasionally-and-you-still-wanna-wake-up-late’) lecture. Since the lawyer’s appointment was after lunch, I took her to have a look at the work-in-progress at home, as well as the apartment she was about to sign her name to. She likes both by the way *lion3ss sighed in relief*.

After the signing hoopla, T left for classes and Buster (who managed to work his way around Ma’am to get half day off) joined us for lunch. Also managed to get T’s present for a really good price before going back to PI to rest and pack. Since Mama’s flight was at quarter to eight, we took our own sweet time resting and talking (errr..and Buster catching up on lost sleep!). BIG MISTAKE. Apparently it was the Lantern Festival that night and a few roads in KL were closed due to this. Add this to it being a Friday and you’ll get - a massive traffic jam. Although we left at about 1715 hours, we were stuck in Loke Yew for almost an hour! Mama was panicking, in fear that she’ll miss her flight. I was feeling guilty and upset to make her feel panic and to top it all, I had a call from the house asking me to come back and cook since the whole household was sick.

There I was, stuck in a traffic jam next to my ever worried mom, thinking of what to cook for dinner and realised that I would also have to miss having a belated birthday get-together with the girls. I guess this is where I felt a tug-of-war between family obligations and an opportunity to be with friends who used to be your family when you were single. The moment I reached KL Cat and rushed Mama to the ERL, it was already kinda late. Had a milder traffic jam in Jalan Bangsar and by the time I reached the house, BW already put everything in order for me to cook. Texted friends to confirm I wasn’t gonna make it, not that it made much of a difference to anyone, anyway. The dish was added with a bit of tears of frustration with how the whole day turned out to be. But later, looking at how everyone who were so weak, especially lil’ Nanum ate dinner made me realise that it was all worth it.

Sometimes, the finer things in life hit you right in the face even when you're not out there looking.

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

All Things Must Past

Today has been a roller coaster - mentally and emotionally. On the workfront, I am trying my best to cope with the new assignments given (everything is simply soooo urgent), and I am just slightly cheesed off with those who only know to order others around. And what's with the I-Don't-Know-How-To-Do-It-So-Let's-Give-It-To-Those-Who-Do-And-We-Just-Breath-On-Their-Necks-While-They-Do-It attitude. Why can't they just learn? These are the people who talk about changing mindsets and inspiring people, but sometimes I feel they are the ones who should start first *big sigh*.

Feeling so topsy-turvy lately, it is a refreshing change to get lighthearted mail from friends, old and new alike. And a therapy session I didn't realise I needed did wonders. Tears don't come around easily these days, at least not in front of others. But the overwhelming feeling of everything just broke the dam. To the jester, thanks for being able to make me laugh and cry at the same time..I really needed that.

A storm is brewing outside. Maybe it's best to just catch the train and head home before it gets worse. Have a great evening, everyone.


All things must pass
All things must pass away
All things must pass
none of life's strings can last

So I must be on my way
And face another day
Now the darkness only stays at night time
In the morning it will fade away
Daylight is good at arriving at the right time
No it's not always going t be this grey

All things must pass
All things must pass away
All things must pass away

George Harrison (1943-2001)

Friday, September 10, 2004

Have A Wonderful, Wonderful Weekend..

Friday is finally here! Gosh, one can't imagine how draggy this week has been. I've been counting the minutes, and trust me - it has be so darn long! I guess being constantly bogged down with work, out-of-mood and tired contributes to the fact. TZ said if there was a picture in the dictionary to describe 'lembek' (lethargic), my mug shot would probably be it. *sigh*

Since I have missed sleeping-in last weekend due to the workshop *sticks tongue out* , I've been looking forward to catch up on my (not-so-)beautiful sleep on both Saturday and Sunday. Just now I realised that it may not be the case since:

1) Home is being renovated, hence I will be in the family house
1.1) Others in the house are up and about by 0800 hours, the latest.
1.2) Kids too
1.3) Kids (refer 1.2) seem to have a liking to our room, particularly
Saturday mornings.
1.4) BW's kid brother is sick, so there is a possibility of taking over the
domestic affair.

2) I have an early doctor's appointment (why, oh why did I ever agree?)

3) I am trying *hee* to start on my morning jogs, for the upteenth time. *guilty look*

Good luck lion3ss! Oh well, at least I get to see Aefy and NKN too, and that is definitely something to look forward to.

Have a relaxing weekend!

Thursday, September 09, 2004

A Walk Down Memory Lane - The Besut Story

Had my weekly conversation with Wan recently, and after a while she asked me about how the renovation is coming along. Well, I guess progress report is much needed as she is my main project financier (interest-free loan, enough said!). We were talking about the timeline and all when she asked when will I go back to Besut again. According to her, there is a cabinet full of dinner sets and tea sets just collecting dust in her house. I am rather touched with her gesture and excited too, for it will not only compliment the set I am currently using but I will also own some antique sets that Wan collected during the British occupancy. I can't wait for my next drive home, and a chance to visit Wan & Ki's house is always something I look forward to.

My grandparents' house is situated right at the crossroad coming from either Jerteh or Penarik. For people who were born in Kampung Raja, their house is a place that most of them can relate to. I remembered it to be a house always full of visitors, be it Ki's ex-students, Wan's friends or even strangers who wanted to buy orchids from the garden. In fact, when I met an ex-VP from my company recently, she spoke about how she used to love coming over to my grandparents' house just to look at the orchids! Since Ki was quite a well-known teacher in his time, and Wan was active in Wanita Umno, most of their visitors came from all over the country.

This wooden house, was ahead of its time when it was first built. Ki always had a modern outlook on things even way back then. The architecture, the landscape and even the interior was not of those typical ones you would expect of a kampung house. However, it is at the same time it looks as traditional as the house next door! They had an outdoor tool shed, a small pond (which cousin Yati used to desribe as a swimming pool to her then fiancé!), rows and rows of orchid plants and a few bird cages as big as our rooms! For us kids, that house was like THE place to go during school holidays.

I remember the numerous family gatherings we had there, especially when Ki was still around. The nine Cucu Che'gu Ali (Teacher Ali's grandchildren) would swim (yup, actually swim!) in the pool, frequent the Kedai Gmart across the road, and run freely in Wan's garden like there's no tomorrow *T, you weren't born yet this time*. Abang, being the only child before I came along, stayed in Kg. Raja for weeks whenever he followed Ki home. Haley, lived with them there for about a year when her parents went abroad. And yours truly, was also a frequent visitor - tailing Abang whenever he decided to jump into Ki's White Fiat to go to Besut. Although we have tonnes of pictures from our visits, I can see them as clear as day in my head whenever I think of that house. I think one of my earliest memories would come from there - hiding from Ki and Wan in one of their decorative 'lege' (those cement round things which they use for wells), without me realising they took a picture of us inside it! That and one of collecting buoh kemuting in the bushes outside the gate.

The visits became less and less frequent after Ki fell sick and even more so after he passed away. Mama and my uncles later decided for Wan to stay with us, since no one was around anymore to look after her in Besut. Gone were the orchids and the garden that was once Ki and Wan's pride and joy. We closed the house, and it was heart-breaking to see Wan's tears upon leaving the place where she and Ki built their lives. Most of the things in the house is still intact, and whenever we visit we still stay there. It is just a bit sad that whenever we go back, the once-grand-manor looks unattended and empty.

Nevertheless, that house is nostalgic to many. I can't help but smile in delight when met some of Ki's old pupils (some of whom still visit Wan) and they relate their own memories there. And some of them still stop by just to look at the house whenever they pass through Kampung Raja and pass the stories to their children and grandchildren. Which I will do too, one fine day. Insya Allah..

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

Cancerous Thoughts

A dear friend just had an operation yesterday. Alhamdulillah, everything went fine and last I visited, she was still under the influence of the drugs - sleeping soundly. It feels so funny looking at her so small and fragile in her hospital bed. I guess I am used to see the hyper, energetic side of her.

Lately, so many people I know have been sick. MJ, a health freak - has been having severe period pains lately and in her last check up, found out that she had a fibroid in a size of a tennis ball in one of her ovaries. Thank goodness the doctor acted fast on it and decided to take it out. Aunty Nari had one of her breast removed due to a benign growth, found out a month later that she has a stage two ovarian cancer at the same time. Ebs lost her dad to liver cancer last July and Ash's mom is now battling breast cancer. *sigh*

Someone sent me a mail recently on the various cancer specifically for women, complete with pictures and it made me so worried. The images were just too real, too scary. Cruella, after her medical check-up last month asked me whether I have ever gone for a pap smear to which my answer was no. She actually scolded me and practically scared me enough that I almost went immediately! *Err, this was a month ago and no, I still haven't gone!* Had a discussion with MMT and Kit over the subject and to my surprise, even these mothers-of-two haven't conjured up the courage to be prodded and tested. Guess I am not the only one. Mama told me that the test is not as painful as others say, just a tad uncomfortable. Maybe one of these days might just brave myself. When, I don't know yet.

I pray to God that I will never have to go through it, or even have to lose someone extremely close to me due to this. Na'uzubillah. Looking after Aboh and his diabetes and Wan with her on-off-on-again headaches is sad enough for me, and these are not even half as bad as some others have to go through.

On a happier front, Aefy and baby Wan Maisarah something (they haven't decided on the third name) are back home. Since the dad is against people visitng at night (for fear of bringing unwelcomed beings into the house - don't ask me where he got this!), guess the earliest we get to see them is this weekend!

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Back To Basics

Hamzah ba' mati di atas abb...

Yup, I am back to the most basic Quran readings - learning muqaddam. I have been meaning to re-start my daily readings and weekly classes, but the old procrastinator in me keeps postponing the noble idea. So when a few of the staff on my floor talked about calling an ustaz every Tuesday, I was all game. And he felt that it won't be a waste if we start from scratch, much to everyone's approval.

This is the second time I am taking classes at work. The first time was two years ago, when I was studying under ZZA - a very, very serious (and not to forget fierce) lady. Managed to complete a few surahs till I started travelling and missing classes. And last year, my regular nightly reading was often neglected. The only reading I had was on Thursday nights - if I wasn't busy doing anything else. The Quran was gathering dust on the dressing table.

Recently, I was reminded of the list of things-to-do that I promised myself. Things I needed to do in order to be in focus again, and to be at ease with myself. And it works. As always. Reading those alphabets and turning those pages gives me a sense of serenity and peace I needed. And now, even if I have to start from Square 1, I am happy as a bird. Not only does it helps me with my tajwid, but also the right pronounciation.

I remember my first mengaji class. I was five. The class was 15 minutes walk away from my house. To get to Che' Da's house, Abang and me had to pass through Mak Ngoh Puli's house (she sold..err.. kuih puli *duh* and lompat tikam) as well as Mok Teh's pulut lepa's store. It was no wonder that we always came back with goodies. The first day I was 'enrolled' into the class, Mok (my nanny) brought a bag of sweets and some fruits. For those who are not familiar with mengaji classes in the kampung (or is it only in Terengganu?), the teachers do not accept any money in return for their expertise. They do it as part of ibadah. So, parents usually give food, flour or batik instead. Che' Da's sons (who also taught the junior kids a.k.a me) were talking about these new kids who came with sweets in front of me and Abang not knowing it was us!

I remembered going to mengaji in my dresses and skirts, but always with a blanket handy to cover myself. I was known as 'anok cindralela mok' (Mok's Cinderella daughter) due to this. Hated the nickname, but it brought me much closer to Che Da's family. I stopped going there after Standard One, and as much as I regretted it, I stopped visiting them altogether. The last time I went there was four years ago when Che Da passed away.

I hope I'll make her proud by reading again. I remembered her words till today - "Quran ni, kalau kita berenti senang nok hilang. Dok soh lupa baca sokmo, biar pung selai sehari. (The Quran, once you stop reading will easily be forgotten and fade away. Don't ever forget to read it regularly, even if it's a page a day.)"




Sunday, September 05, 2004

Annnouncement

Congratulations to Aefy and hubby on the arrival of a boucing baby girl, who has yet to be named.

Well, you guys know what NKN and I would like her name to be! *grin*

Will definitely come to visit soon. Can't wait to be introduced to this little bundle of joy (who will almost surely NOT call us anything BUT Aunty Lion3ss & Aunty NKN - and no, no, not that mok ca or mok na idea, please!) and meet you proud parents.

Thursday, September 02, 2004

Sometimes, you just don't know who to trust anymore.

The newlyweds came over from JB recently and over our brownies, this conversation took place:

Me : I promise we'll have a proper dinner outing the next time around. And this one's on me.
Hepsy : We'll take it as our wedding gift lah, ok?

Buster & I looked at each other, perplexed.

Gorgeous : Hey, Hepsy didn't mean it that way. You know your presence that night means more than any present.


*Uncomfortable silence*

Me : Err..Steve, you did get our card right?

Gorgeous : Of course, a very nice one indeed. Hey, let's not make this an issue. We don't expect presents lah awak.

Me : I know, but hmm..you did get the angpau right? The one in the card? The one I left with your sis?


The surprised look on their faces told me that they didn't. Hepsy's pretty face turned into irritation. Apparently, they didn't get anything else from us apart from the card. And apparently, our 'gift' wasn't the only angpau that went missing.

The thing was, Buster already had second thoughts about leaving the card with Jay & Fly when he saw her opening the envelope. But since they were his family, we decided not to think ill of the situation. But how a person could do that to your own sibling is beyond me. Not only that according to the couple, Jay & Fly didn't even offer to help with the wedding - but to steal their angpau is a bit too much. Maybe I am the only one who thinks this - but aren't siblings suppose to help one another? And after what Gorgeous has done to help them when their parents disowned her once upon a time ago? It disgusted me to the core. I didn't show it to them, but Gorgeous kinda read my mind.

He told us quite a lot about Jay & Fly, which (although do not justify what they did) made clearer sense on their actions. Not that I forgive people for doing things like this to their family. I guess it bugs me to see family members stabbing each other on the back. Or steal from them. Coming from a close-knitted family, I can't imagine Abang or T doing such things. But it is happening, this is not the first one I hear. I just pray that Allah spare us from ever having to go through it.

Steve & Hepsy, am so sorry. We'll make it up the next time you come over.

To Jay & Fly - I just hope one day you'll come to your senses and realise that what you do might just lose you the only people who still care about you.