That soon?!
posted by lion3ss | 5:38 PM
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Random Thoughts of a Lioness
The reward of conformity was that everyone liked you, except yourself.
About Me
- Name: lion3ss
This is me. Like it or not. 'I have long since come to believe that people never mean half of what they say, and it is best to disregard their talk and judge only their actions' - Dorothy Day, 1952
Lion3ss feels:
- A new home to call our own
- Today, 10 months ago
- Has it been that long?
- He's not ready to check out from Hotel Lioness
- Wishing for a good night's rest
- It won't be long from now on,I hope!
- Oh, that guilty feeling!
- Has it been that long?
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Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Monday, March 27, 2006
Oh dear..
A dear relative is planning to get married to her long time beau this year. They've been going out for almost 6 years, and I guess it is the most natural thing to do at this point.
I am happy for Nyna. I am so glad that both her and the bf lasted this long, and taking the next step. I look forward to her having a family of her own, so that our kids can grow up together like we did when we were little.
So why do I have this disturbing feeling and bits of worry about the whole thing?
As long as I knew him, her bf has always been panas baran. I have heard them fight, and it is not a nice sight. My other cousins and I have heard how overly sensitive he can be if she doesn't pick up his calls on time. And how sad he can make her by scolding her for the tiniest things. That and his tak kisah way of supporting himself. Call me spoilt, but I personally would find it hard to regress if I am already brought up comfortably by my parents. And I know for a fact that has been the case for Nyna as well. Being the only daughter, she has been showered with almost everything! I understand that not everyone thinks a degree is necessary to be successful and I respect that. I NEVER look down on what people do for a living. For me, as long as they are ikhlas and berusaha besungguh-sungguh, the rezeki will be theirs. I just wish he strives better, that's all. It might look workable now, but I just don't want them to end up arguing about this later.
I know he has his good sides. He was one of the firsts one to rush to her side when she went through a sudden loss. He tries his best to be around whenever he can. He puts in extra effort to prove to everyone that he is worth it.
He is not too keen on hanging out with our family whenever we meet. He'd rather sit alone at one corner than join us for a chat. Not that we don't include him, we try to. But he feels uncomfortable, which leads to make us feeling bad. This soon will lead to frustration on Nyna's side, and a further misunderstanding between them. I wish he'd stop feeling inferior, because none of us are judging him. My greatest fear is that we'll lose Nyna once they settle down because the hubby doesn't feel like hanging out with us,
I love Nyna and hope that all turns out well. Pray with me, ok?
I am happy for Nyna. I am so glad that both her and the bf lasted this long, and taking the next step. I look forward to her having a family of her own, so that our kids can grow up together like we did when we were little.
So why do I have this disturbing feeling and bits of worry about the whole thing?
As long as I knew him, her bf has always been panas baran. I have heard them fight, and it is not a nice sight. My other cousins and I have heard how overly sensitive he can be if she doesn't pick up his calls on time. And how sad he can make her by scolding her for the tiniest things. That and his tak kisah way of supporting himself. Call me spoilt, but I personally would find it hard to regress if I am already brought up comfortably by my parents. And I know for a fact that has been the case for Nyna as well. Being the only daughter, she has been showered with almost everything! I understand that not everyone thinks a degree is necessary to be successful and I respect that. I NEVER look down on what people do for a living. For me, as long as they are ikhlas and berusaha besungguh-sungguh, the rezeki will be theirs. I just wish he strives better, that's all. It might look workable now, but I just don't want them to end up arguing about this later.
I know he has his good sides. He was one of the firsts one to rush to her side when she went through a sudden loss. He tries his best to be around whenever he can. He puts in extra effort to prove to everyone that he is worth it.
He is not too keen on hanging out with our family whenever we meet. He'd rather sit alone at one corner than join us for a chat. Not that we don't include him, we try to. But he feels uncomfortable, which leads to make us feeling bad. This soon will lead to frustration on Nyna's side, and a further misunderstanding between them. I wish he'd stop feeling inferior, because none of us are judging him. My greatest fear is that we'll lose Nyna once they settle down because the hubby doesn't feel like hanging out with us,
I love Nyna and hope that all turns out well. Pray with me, ok?
posted by lion3ss | 12:52 PM
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Monday, March 20, 2006
Am I Doing Enough?
Have I read enough to ready me for this?
Am I providing enough spiritual foundation for us both at this stage?
Did Lil Cub suffer when my BP dropped?
Am I not eating enough for us?
Is there any way for me to know that I am doing all I can?
Darling, I am sorry if I am not at my best at times. I promise I'll try to be better. I love you Lil Cub. I might not have shown it as much, but bear with me for I am learning too. Don't give up on me, ok?
Gosh, sometimes I wish I am Superwoman..*sigh*
Am I providing enough spiritual foundation for us both at this stage?
Did Lil Cub suffer when my BP dropped?
Am I not eating enough for us?
Is there any way for me to know that I am doing all I can?
Darling, I am sorry if I am not at my best at times. I promise I'll try to be better. I love you Lil Cub. I might not have shown it as much, but bear with me for I am learning too. Don't give up on me, ok?
Gosh, sometimes I wish I am Superwoman..*sigh*
posted by lion3ss | 10:54 AM
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Thursday, March 09, 2006
Thank you for the music!
My brothers and Buster chipped in to get me an iPod Nano for my birthday. I LOVE it! Now, everywhere I go I am accopanied by the two things that make me happy - my book and continuous music. Oh, and Bro got me TWO new shoes *as all pregnant ladies should stop wearing heels he said*.]
Life in the office is so hectic lately, with the roadshow on its way. Changes happens every 5 minutes, and boy..everyone seems to have their own ideas. Thank goodness for EllyB who keeps me sane. I better take full advantage of this before she leaves.
Ooh, it's 6 o'clock. Time for more music in the LRT. Hope someone offers this lady a seat!
Life in the office is so hectic lately, with the roadshow on its way. Changes happens every 5 minutes, and boy..everyone seems to have their own ideas. Thank goodness for EllyB who keeps me sane. I better take full advantage of this before she leaves.
Ooh, it's 6 o'clock. Time for more music in the LRT. Hope someone offers this lady a seat!
posted by lion3ss | 4:16 PM
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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Here's to another year..
It must have been one of the less memorable March eve ever. Not only was I attacked by a killer headache, Buster was in one of his difficult moods again. Well, I blame it on my sulking to spark it off in the first place *sigh*. Sometimes I wish both of us would be less hard headed. *crossing fingers that the Little One won't take after that trait from the parents*
Before I dozed off last night, the thought that crossed my mind was of how I have lived my life for the past 27 years. I realised that there are so many things that I have yet to accomplish, and those that could've been done. Before you know it, another year is going to pass and you Things-To-Do list remains a list still.
Here's wishing for a better, more meaningful year. And hopefully, with more things crossed of the list!
Before I dozed off last night, the thought that crossed my mind was of how I have lived my life for the past 27 years. I realised that there are so many things that I have yet to accomplish, and those that could've been done. Before you know it, another year is going to pass and you Things-To-Do list remains a list still.
Here's wishing for a better, more meaningful year. And hopefully, with more things crossed of the list!
posted by lion3ss | 12:22 PM
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