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Random Thoughts of a Lioness

The reward of conformity was that everyone liked you, except yourself.

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This is me. Like it or not. 'I have long since come to believe that people never mean half of what they say, and it is best to disregard their talk and judge only their actions' - Dorothy Day, 1952

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Cause he's leaving, on a jet plane..

Buster left for the land of the Great Wall this morning. Only 4 days this time, but away nonetheless.

The problem with him leaving on such short notice is that we will be left with so many things to sort out the day/night before. And that normally leaves us with no time to just chill out. For example, he had to work late last night so by the time we left for home to pick up the laundry, change the car, sign some documents and check on the house, we were both dead tired. Couldn't help much with his packing since my back was giving me a hard time.

Sent him to KL Sentral about 7 this morning, and I was quiet all the way. Not that I meant to be moody or anything, just tired and lack of sleep. Now that his flight has left, I feel so bad and suddenly miss him terribly. At times like this, I wish I am a better wife..

Dahlah kena tidur kat in-laws malam ni *sigh*.

Looking at the bright side though, I get to go for my walk today with Emm. And a promise of bakso for dinner..*nyum*. Oh, and am meeting Abang for lunch today and Bro for tea tomorrow. All that AND the fact that I'll get the weekend to myself. Was thinking of a read aloud session with Lil Cub and some shopping. Still have quite some items to purchase in preparation of Lil Cub's arrival. His uncle SL just gave us a rather generous cheque last night as a present, plus as a drectorship token for Buster for their company. Alhamdulillah. It couldn't have come at a better time.

Yay, the internal server is up again. Better get back to work..

Friday, June 16, 2006

Don't bother me, please..

If it is not for Daddy and the kids, sometimes I question myself why I bother to go back to the mansion. Not only that the people there treat us like 3rd class citizens sometimes, the internal conflicts is not something I would like to be tangled in.

Buster says I am just being difficult..but being heavily pregnant with so many other things in mind can really change your mood. Like no, I do not want you to question me on petty things like why I spend my pay on cat food. Or that it is our clothes are the ones getting thrown out of the common cupboard to make way for others. And if I complain to much, it'll put Buster in a spot and we'll end up getting on each other's nerves.

Gosh..I so don't need this right now. Besides, becoming upset over things that don't really matter can't be good for Lil Cub, can it?

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

I'm taking you home..

I first heard this song years ago - one of the episodes of ER where that nurse Carol Hathaway (Julianna Margulies) suddenly realised that she is still in love with Dr Ross (George Clooney)even after they opt to separate and see other people. I still remember the look on her face when a husband of a dead patient told her that you shouldn't let go of your loved ones - especially your soulmates. *sigh*

I just realised that I have this song in my PC. Shared with someone that I'd probably sing this to Lil Cub on the day I take him home from the hospital!

Taking You Home - Don Henley

I had a good life
Before you came
I had my friends and my freedom
I had my name

Still there was sorrow and emptiness
Till you make me glad
Oh and in this love I found strength
I never knew I had

And this love
Is like nothing that I have ever known
Take my hand love
I'm taking you home
Taking you home

There were days, lonely days
When the world wouldn't throw me a crumb
But I kept on believing
That this day would come

And this love
Is like nothing that I have ever known
Take my hand love
I'm taking you home
I'm taking you..

..home
Where we can be with the ones
Who really care
Home..where we acn grow together
Keep you in my heart forever

And this love
Is like nothing that I have ever known
Take my hand love
I'm taking you home..