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Random Thoughts of a Lioness

The reward of conformity was that everyone liked you, except yourself.

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This is me. Like it or not. 'I have long since come to believe that people never mean half of what they say, and it is best to disregard their talk and judge only their actions' - Dorothy Day, 1952

Monday, November 24, 2008

There must be more to life than this...

OK..this might be a total mess of pure whining, but bear with me ok?

Going back after the sun sets, and seeing your loved ones just an hour before bedtime.

Having on-the-go dinners, and sleeping at the wee hours of the morning.

Looking forward for weekends, but do not get to even have some quality 'me' time due to planned & unplanned activities.

And to go through the vicious cycle again come Monday...*sigh*

As much as love my job right now, sometimes I just feel like taking some timee off and reflect on my life. If it is going to be like this, I wonder if it's really worth it. Travelling is less lately, but only because it is nearly the end of the year. Looking at the activities lined up for next year, looks like I'll be frequenting KLIA again.

Poor Lil Cub has been having his dinner at the school the past 1 week. Everytime Buster picks me up from work with him in the back seat I feel like crying. Will he hate me one day for this? Will he love me less? Will he love the teachers more? Will he send me to 'old-folks-nursery' when I am old and grey?

I am not the only one who is going thru this. Buster will be on 'high-speed-long-hours' mode until March due to their 50th anniversary celebrations. Emm went thru 3 weeks of leaving Little Sprog at the nursery till 9 everyday. But even knowing that, it really doesn't make it any easier on me.

Surely, there must be more to life than this, right? Or isn't there?

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Tuesday, November 18, 2008

I wish...

...I could be on a 7-week holiday too!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Al Fatihah

Came back from my holidays with a phone call from Jaycee - our dearest friend passed away in a car accident back in Tawau, just a day after her engagement.

Which brings to mind how a split second can change everything.

And that the Almighty has promised us that ajal maut is all in His hands.

It made me think how I may regret so many opportunities lost spending time with my loved ones should anything like this ever happen again.

And how I often opt to finish my work than taking time out to smile and laugh with them.

Her passing was hard on many of us in the office, especially those who are close to her. How we shall miss her smile, and easy going nature. How I will no longer able to just pick up the phone and bombard her with stupid questions that only she would entertain. And not to hear her voice and that laugh again.

Rest in peace, Hasnih. Semoga Allah menempatkan beliau di kalangan mereka yang beriman.