A mournful Sunday..
From the first time I laid eyes on her that day, I was smitten. Those beautiful light brown eyes just won me over..
I took her into my life, and the lives of the people who are dear to me. She became part of the family..although not related by blood.
She brightened everyone's day, greeting us when we reach home, listening when we're in the dumps.
Oh, but how she hated the thunderstorm, always running in to seek solace and comfort on the brown sofa near the door!
She taught the little ones about responsibility and loyalty, and for that, I am really glad.
She started being sick last October, she was feverish and had started losing her hair. When we came back from Terengganu, we saw her lying down with swollen feet and infected skin. The doctor said she would be better off admitted, and monitored for a week or two.
No expenses were spared. We did tests for AIDS, leukemia, cancer - the works. They couldn't find anything except that her immune system is attacking her own body. We left her to recover for 3 weeks.
She came back healthier than before, but not quite the same. She took longer naps and no longer have the zest for life as before. It was sad looking at her that way, but we wished for her to get better.
A month after, she fell sick again. Same symptoms, same condition. This time she was admitted for 2 weeks, and they found out that she is suffering from a rare disease. Apparently, it happens to one in a thousand. The only way was to give her steroids to build her immunity.
As the months pass by, the disease has spread into her blood system. We became a regular at the hospital. 'Systemic Lupos' the doctor told us. More drugs, higher dosage of steroids. And everytime the dose increases, it shortens her life span. She no longer goes out with us, and even walking around at home wears her out easily. The only time we get to see her active is when we talk to her.
Last week, even before her prescription finished she fell sick again. The drugs are not working anymore. Next step is to use a stronger one.
I couldn't do that to her. What kind of life is she living depending on drugs. It fills my eyes to see her sick all the time. It shatters my heart to know that she'll never be herself anymore. And the agony she goes through.
Plus, I am not always there. It was different when I was still living there, but now I only see her 2-3 days a week. Having people looking after her is one thing, but knowing we can't do anything to make her pain go away is another.
I had to make a decision - to agree with the expert's suggestion.
You'd think you're strong enough, as you've lost your furry bundles of joy in front of you a couple of times. But nothing could prepare you for the pain of making the decision to put your cat to sleep.
Rest in peace Socks. I am so, so sorry.
I took her into my life, and the lives of the people who are dear to me. She became part of the family..although not related by blood.
She brightened everyone's day, greeting us when we reach home, listening when we're in the dumps.
Oh, but how she hated the thunderstorm, always running in to seek solace and comfort on the brown sofa near the door!
She taught the little ones about responsibility and loyalty, and for that, I am really glad.
She started being sick last October, she was feverish and had started losing her hair. When we came back from Terengganu, we saw her lying down with swollen feet and infected skin. The doctor said she would be better off admitted, and monitored for a week or two.
No expenses were spared. We did tests for AIDS, leukemia, cancer - the works. They couldn't find anything except that her immune system is attacking her own body. We left her to recover for 3 weeks.
She came back healthier than before, but not quite the same. She took longer naps and no longer have the zest for life as before. It was sad looking at her that way, but we wished for her to get better.
A month after, she fell sick again. Same symptoms, same condition. This time she was admitted for 2 weeks, and they found out that she is suffering from a rare disease. Apparently, it happens to one in a thousand. The only way was to give her steroids to build her immunity.
As the months pass by, the disease has spread into her blood system. We became a regular at the hospital. 'Systemic Lupos' the doctor told us. More drugs, higher dosage of steroids. And everytime the dose increases, it shortens her life span. She no longer goes out with us, and even walking around at home wears her out easily. The only time we get to see her active is when we talk to her.
Last week, even before her prescription finished she fell sick again. The drugs are not working anymore. Next step is to use a stronger one.
I couldn't do that to her. What kind of life is she living depending on drugs. It fills my eyes to see her sick all the time. It shatters my heart to know that she'll never be herself anymore. And the agony she goes through.
Plus, I am not always there. It was different when I was still living there, but now I only see her 2-3 days a week. Having people looking after her is one thing, but knowing we can't do anything to make her pain go away is another.
I had to make a decision - to agree with the expert's suggestion.
You'd think you're strong enough, as you've lost your furry bundles of joy in front of you a couple of times. But nothing could prepare you for the pain of making the decision to put your cat to sleep.
Rest in peace Socks. I am so, so sorry.
posted by lion3ss | 11:56 AM
13 Comments:
auww.. don't be sad dear lioness.. (dapping lioness's tears).. i know how it feels like to lose a cat.. and it ain't never easy girl..
my cat gave birth to 3 kittens last month and im planning (have) to give it away. do you want one?
Oh! I went through something like that. I cried for a long time.
by the way i oredi have a blogspot...
*hugs*
i'd feel the same way should the same happen to my misha
Dear,
I'm sorry to hear about Socks.
I would be sad too if it's Shira in Socks's place.
BTW, never thot cats can get AIDS and such.. wow...
Cat can get AIDs?
Sorry to hear u loose your pet Socks. Long time ago I lost my cat "merah".
Kucing saya 'arwah Bobo' tinggal dengan kita selama 17 tahun (dia warga tua, betul-betul tua) sebelum pulang ke rahmatullah tahun 2001. Bulu dia 'tegak-tegak' sebelum dia meninggal dunia, sebab masa tu dia sakit. Vet kata, mungkin dia tak lama dengan kita. Kita fikir dia akan meninggal sebab sakit tua, tetapi ajalnya di tangan musang (musang ada tangan ke?) yang telah mencekik kucing saya suatu subuh yang hening. Saya dengar dia menjerit-jerit kat luar sebab masa tu dia jerit kat tingkap saya. Saya tak terfikir itu kucing saya, sebab dia tak pernah keluar rumah. Cuma mungkin pagi tu ajal dia, maka dia pun keluar. Sampai sekarang saya masih ingat Bobo. Sekarang ada Malim, kucing pendatang haram yg suka menumpang di rumah saya. Rupa Malim sebijik macam reincarnation arwah Bobo, cuma Malim is male, Bobo dulu female. Lepas tu ramai pulak kucing jalanan datang rumah saya dan duduk di sana sebab mereka ingat ini welfare ke, atau mereka dah dengar dari Malim, rumah ray cat ada makanan untuk kucing.
ray and the Bobo cats
binx : Thanks. Yup, it is never easy. Btw, thanks for the offer. Shall definitely think it over.
Lollies : It feels teruk kan? So, which one do you update more often?
famygirl : Thanks *hugs back*
Leez : Apparently, the people in SPCA and hospital said that AIDS is a serious problem with cats and dogs nowadays. There were quite a number of cases, especially in Ampang area.
DG : Yup, they can. You don't have a cat now I assume?
Ray : Sorry about Bobo. Jahat musang bertangan tu. At least sekarang dah ada Malim (and friends) teman.
Yes, I do not have a cat now..... if I have, I might starve it to death...
oh ray, you and your cats.
bloody brilliant malim tu. siap boleh canang buletin lagi.. WOW..
Wow, so scary to think that cats also can have AIDS.
What if your pet kucing lovingly scratches you or gigit you and terluka??
*Gotta tell Shira not to bite me anymore*
Yang, pasang laa haloscan! :)
DG : Oh, better not then!
Leez : Tulah pasal, I need to ask. Since there are kids involved kan? Ok, ok..tolong I petang nie ok?
it's the same thing..
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