Of Homes and Weariness
I feel so tired, almost lethargic lately.
Buster claims it is the coming-back-late syndrome (aka running away from BW syndrome). But I dunno. I just feel tired. I mean, there must be more to life than just coming back just in time for a late dinner, followed by a bath and straight to bed. As much as I look forward to the weekend retreats back home, I still can't shake off this feeling. Come Sundays, I get stressed out again thinking of the weeks to come.
With the silent war back in the house with BW, I haven't really been eating there for almost a month now. Even if I do the cooking. Just don't feel right about it. I don't wanna be indebted to her. I just wish I can go back home. I can't call that place home yet..in fact, I don't think I can ever call it that. They say home is where the heart is. And my heart is just not there. Can't wait till the day finally comes when I get to stay home permanently, instead of just treating it as a weekend getaway.
*sigh*
On another note:
Am still feeling a bit lost in this new host. I was getting too used to the simplicity of the previous blog that I am just a tad lazy to learn the technicalities of this one.
Buster claims it is the coming-back-late syndrome (aka running away from BW syndrome). But I dunno. I just feel tired. I mean, there must be more to life than just coming back just in time for a late dinner, followed by a bath and straight to bed. As much as I look forward to the weekend retreats back home, I still can't shake off this feeling. Come Sundays, I get stressed out again thinking of the weeks to come.
With the silent war back in the house with BW, I haven't really been eating there for almost a month now. Even if I do the cooking. Just don't feel right about it. I don't wanna be indebted to her. I just wish I can go back home. I can't call that place home yet..in fact, I don't think I can ever call it that. They say home is where the heart is. And my heart is just not there. Can't wait till the day finally comes when I get to stay home permanently, instead of just treating it as a weekend getaway.
*sigh*
On another note:
Am still feeling a bit lost in this new host. I was getting too used to the simplicity of the previous blog that I am just a tad lazy to learn the technicalities of this one.
posted by lion3ss | 2:02 PM
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