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Random Thoughts of a Lioness

The reward of conformity was that everyone liked you, except yourself.

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This is me. Like it or not. 'I have long since come to believe that people never mean half of what they say, and it is best to disregard their talk and judge only their actions' - Dorothy Day, 1952

Friday, October 28, 2005

Happiness is..

.. being greeted by your excited 1-year-old niece at the door..

.. sharing a personal joke with your sister-in-law..

.. getting an SMS from your husband from across the world..

.. having a quiet, quality conversation with a close friend over pasta and gellatos..

.. knowing that your boss decided to take the day off *yay!*

.. spending your buddy's last day at work doing manicures during lunch

.. the idea of having your bed mate back home in about 12 hours..


It is indeed a good day..

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

I am a princess..NOT!

You Are Ariel!
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Headstrong and fiesty. You have a mind of your own that's full of romantic dreams about the world around you. Exploring exotic places is your ultimate dream, and although you can be a little naive you'll realize that there is something to be gained from your family's wisdom.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

It ain't worth it..

Sometimes when the going gets tough, the tough gets going. Pack their bags, seal the box to misery and hop onto the next train to happiness and recovery. And with that, grit their teeth through the cr*ppy moments and use it to make them tougher.

It may hurt, yes..but there are others who are hurting even more. It may even be bitter, but aren't the truth sometimes are hard to swallow? So, they move on with their lives...not forgetting the pain or betrayal or loss they have endured.

But what about those who refuse to move on? What about those who prefer to take the route to self destruction instead? Those who are determined to drag others down with them, just because they cannot accept what happened? Oh yes, and what about those who see everyone (and everything!) else as a reason for his or her unhappiness?

They suffer. They become bitter and resentful. Some even tend to be psychotic. They will end up losing their minds eventually. People who were originally rallying for them will end up whispering behind their backs.

Well, for all I know - they can wallow in self-pity and denial and bitterness all they can.. But the thing they should realise is that the world goes on without waiting for them and in the end, it is YOU who is left to pick up the pieces anyway. And by then, others would have moved on without you.

So before you choose to break someone's heart, or pointing fingers at others for your downfall..remember to look into the mirror first and ask yourself -

IS IT WORTH IT?

IS IT WORTH LOSING YOUR SANITY AND HAPPINESS AND RESPECT OF OTHERS?

IS IT WORTH IT TO LOSE YOURSELF?

Sunday, October 09, 2005

A Walk Down Memory Lane - Berbuka Puasa

It has only been the third day of puasa and I am already counting the days to go back to Terengganu. Even with the 'situation' I have with Mama, I miss going back. It being the fasting month is making it worse. Don't get me wrong, I am loving this whole new experience of fasting as a couple, but sometimes you get homesick.

When we were growing up (and when everyone was still at home), we simply loved Ramadhan because of the food. Everyday, Wan would whip up some kuihs for iftar, and cook anything our hearts desired. My all-time favourite is Wan's Bekang Ubi and Puding Gula Anguh (more famously known as Creme Caramel). Abang would always ask for kuih bekang or tuppat sutung, and T? Well, we told him he couldn't demand anything since he didn't fast *snicker*.

Our daily routine after school during Ramadhan would be mengaji and finishing our homework before Mama and Aboh got home. About half-past five, we would pester Aboh to bring us to Pasor Chabang Tiga or Jalan Panji Alam for our dosage of side dishes. I just loooove the market during puasa. Everything smelled so good, there were so many colours - the people, the stalls, even the food. We would never fail to get at least a dozen ttupat goreng (deep fried ketupat pulut) to be eaten with sambal daging @ serunding. Oh, and either cendol, cincau or biji selasih (although we call it telo kattok) to drench our throats. A stop by the mercun stall is also a must to stock up on our ammunition!

By the time we get home, it would be about half an hour or so to countdown. I would be in charge of setting the table and help with the food we brought back (and T tasting them). Abang would distribute food to our closest neighbours. On the days where we are blessed with nyor muda (young coconuts) from Mama's staff, we would all three flock at the back to help Aboh. I love scooping the soft, succulent coconut that was to be combined with the juice.

Ten minutes to countdown, Aboh would start preparing our drinks. Our must-have drink was (and still is) homemade air sirap in a big mug, together with either cincau/telo kattok/cendol we bought. Mama would switch on the radio, and sounds of the holy Quran being read would fill our kitchen. We would know when the time for berbuka is near when the radio started playing some middle-eastern music..and would take our seats.

The faint sound of cannon blast marks the time for iftar. Followed by the azaan from our neighbourhood surau. Without fail, Abang and I would finish our first mug of sirap even before we touch any food - much to the elders dismay.

'Kembong perut kekgi'.

After filling our tummies and performing our prayers, we would get ready for out Tarawikh prayers. But that's another story for another day.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

This day, seven years ago...

..I said YES to being Buster's girlfriend, by the door of EllyB's dorm room.

Happy 7th 'steady' Anniversary, my love.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

It is Ramadhan!

Time flies without you realising it. Pejam celik pejam celik, Ramadhan is back.

I actually look forward to this.

The thrill of going to the mosque and see the familiar faces you see once a year.

The fun of going to the Pasar Ramadhan.

The peace and serenity of the month itself.

Among other million reasons..


And this year would mark my first year of fasting in our own home.

Here's wishing everyone SELAMAT MENUNAIKAN IBADAH PUASA..