//DTD XHTML 1.0 Strict//EN" "http://www.w3.org/TR/xhtml1/DTD/xhtml1-strict.dtd"> Random Thoughts of a Lioness: May 2004

Random Thoughts of a Lioness

The reward of conformity was that everyone liked you, except yourself.

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This is me. Like it or not. 'I have long since come to believe that people never mean half of what they say, and it is best to disregard their talk and judge only their actions' - Dorothy Day, 1952

Friday, May 28, 2004

If You Wish Upon A Star..

I wish my flu would just go away and let me be free of these drowsy pills.

I wish Buster didn't have to go for his presentation and leave me in the house with them.

I wish this weekend will be spent quietly at home, watching my new collection of Angel dvds.

I wish I could tag along to the Land of the Rising Sun and not be in this god-forsaken office.

I wish I could have a nice, long quality time with my best friends.

I wish I could turn back time and undo some of the things I hate myself for doing.

*I wish I have better things to jot down..rather than this ridiculous list of wishes.*


Thursday, May 20, 2004

Of Homes and Weariness

I feel so tired, almost lethargic lately.

Buster claims it is the coming-back-late syndrome (aka running away from BW syndrome). But I dunno. I just feel tired. I mean, there must be more to life than just coming back just in time for a late dinner, followed by a bath and straight to bed. As much as I look forward to the weekend retreats back home, I still can't shake off this feeling. Come Sundays, I get stressed out again thinking of the weeks to come.

With the silent war back in the house with BW, I haven't really been eating there for almost a month now. Even if I do the cooking. Just don't feel right about it. I don't wanna be indebted to her. I just wish I can go back home. I can't call that place home yet..in fact, I don't think I can ever call it that. They say home is where the heart is. And my heart is just not there. Can't wait till the day finally comes when I get to stay home permanently, instead of just treating it as a weekend getaway.

*sigh*


On another note:

Am still feeling a bit lost in this new host. I was getting too used to the simplicity of the previous blog that I am just a tad lazy to learn the technicalities of this one.

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

Hunger Pangs

The waiter brought the wrong order last night, making me lose whatever appetite I had earlier to have dinner. Ended up picking at my food.

This morning sees me paying for it. I was so darn hungry that I couldn't even work right! Managed to sneak out for breakfast though - thank goodness for equally-hungry friends and bis bosses' meetings!

SUNDAY, MAY 16, 2004

Here We Are Again..

A new place, to call a home? Leaving the old place was not much of an option..but I had to. Need to figure out how to make this place as interesting though..